How do guys become gay?

This is a question that always hear, how and why do guys turn gay? I’m sure you know a lot of guys who were straight when you first met them, and the second time you see them, they’re holding another guy’s hand. Funny, but true! There are guys who grew up having girlfriends and even sleeping with them. I, myself is one of them! haha Gross Right? I am a late bloomer! lol!  There are other guys who realize they are gay as early grade-school.

Now, back to the question, how do guys turn gay? I did a research on this way back in college, Social Science stuff. We interviewed several gay guys and found out that 44 out of 50 respondents were victims of sexual abuse by another guy when they were younger. Most of them grew up like other Straight guys do, they like girls and date them. Then suddenly something happens that triggers the “gayness”, something like a horrible break up with a girl friend, some get drunk and does it with a closet-guy friend. slowly falling in love with a guy best friend or officemate. Some eventually get curious and end up being straight-trippers, they tend to do it with guys because they don’t pregnant. lol. Lame excuse, probably they are just not ready to accept the fact that they are gay. There are other reasons, but I can’t remember them anymore. lol.

My theory on this is that guys turn gay because of external influences, like sexual abuse growing up with girl siblings, not having a father figure and other reasons.

Scientists did research on this, according to them people are born gay, a woman’s body tends to think that the male baby inside her is a foreign body and bombards it with feminizing hormones, thus making the baby gay. Usually this happens on the second male baby or after a series of male babies, usually the youngest kid turns gay. The reason for this is that the female body becomes more adept in “feminizing” the baby when she has more male kids. makes sense right?

Well, I’m not a doctor or a scientist, everything written here is based on my personal research and some articles that I’ve read. So please, No hate messages please? but please feel free to post your comments, I would love to read and reply to them.

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My Struggle–Intrusion Series

These past few weeks, I’ve been attending the series at VCF green hills with my friends and hearing about how God intrudes and changes our lives. I was actually amazed how God has blessed me and my family. I’m slowly trying to apply what I learned. I’ve been praying really hard and asking a lot of questions from God, He has answered some of them already and what I’m working on is what God wanted me to do. Guess what?

Frugality (as defined by wikipedia)

is the quality of being frugal, sparing, thrifty, prudent or economical in the use of consumable resources such as food, time or money, and avoiding waste, lavishness or extravagance.

In behavioral science, frugality has been defined as the tendency to acquire goods and services in a restrained manner, and resourceful use of already owned economic goods and services, to achieve a longer term goal.

So, to those who know me, yes! this is really hard. I grew up getting what I want and what I needed without exerting much effort. My family gets me what I want from time to time, until now. lol. ako na ang pabigat. haha! God wants me to try to live by what he blesses me with, I tend to overspend on everything, from food, clothes, gadgets and means of transportation. I prayed for God’s intervention/intrusion. and as my master, I MUST obey. Since I got his message, I stopped using my credit cards for unecessary stuff, I am trying really hard not to eat at Fancy resto’s and spend too much on hanging out on malls.

I’m really struggling right now, I got used to having my parents and brother pay for my bills and all those stuff I want. and God wants me to be totally independent and try to live on what I’m earning. So for now, no movie houses, clothes, bags, shoes and new gadgets for me. I started taking cheaper means of transportation as well. Oh and BTW, I need to pay off my credit card bills on my own. haha! so good luck to me! I have tons of bills to pay right now, but I’m not worried at all!

I am at peace, I chose to let go and let God. I am holding on to Him and His promises. I will obey Him. God never has, and never will let me down, that I’m sure of.

Image taken from VCF website.

Twitter the new Grindr? NOT!

If you’re suspecting that you’re brother, best friend or boyfriend is gay you might wanna check his phone if he has this application. lol. Planetromeo, Manjam and other hook up sites are so out dated. haha! this cool app lets you see guys who are within the area, the distance, and the usual profile thing you see on networking sites. Actually helps gay guys hook-up easily lol. a lot of my friends say twitter is the new Grindr! haha a lot of guys hook up thru twitter, without you knowing! lol

A few months back, I remember chatting with 2 guys who are into photography. we had a lot of things in common, we got along and started chatting regularly. there came a time when we decided to meet up. One of them is Ron, an IT guy who happened to be a college batch mate’s colleague. talk about small world!

I remember meeting up with him after office, buying dinner at ayala triangle and super kulitan dinner at his condo. we had a lot of stuff to talk about. I remember him sharing a story about a massage therapist:) He’s a bit older than me, but looks like he’s a college freshman! haha! compliment to! he’s this very cool IT guy who happened to be a good photographer, well travelled and a very good singer:) other than the red box night I remember him hanging out with me during my birthday, he introduced me to his ex. we had a very long kulitan moment, his bf got to see us on our stand-up comedian mode:) haha!  We really got along and now I consider him as one of my closest friends:)

Jay

Next on the Grindr list is Jay, aka Ruby. may ever so loyal kumare. haha! super kulit! we first met up at VCF Ortigas. We had dinner at T-boy Gale and had coffee until midnight! haha. He’s actually the only guy I know who can’t stop himself from uploading his half naked pics on FB and twitter, and whenever i put comments on his page, I always get flooded with notifications from his faithful fans who never stop admiring his physique. When we are together we just can’t stop laughing! and that includes the people around us. we’re the perfect stand up comedy duo! haha. I know he’s currently going thru something right now, I know he can get thru it, he’s you boy next door cutie who is very responsible, he’s a breadwinner and he never fails to say i love you to his mom. The thing is, I can’t remember a time when we actually talked about something sensible haha! puro laugh trip! one of my closest friends, i consider him as my brother/sister lol! Super fun to be with, we both work for the BPO industry thats why we get to share a lot of good practices and funny experiences.

Marvs

The third guy that I met online is Marvs aka Marbin! oh yeah, via twitter:) and accidentally he’s one of my cousin’s barkada! haha! small world! the first time I met him was in Eastwood mall, after his draining exam when he applied as a Software guy at Dan’s company. small world talaga! from there, we started hanging out, almost weekly. He’s a true friend who listens to all of my stories, whenever I need someone to talk to, just a phonecall or an SMS and he would come rushing to my side! he’s like my brother from another mother na! haha! I can’t even think of anything bad to say about him! haha and I hold one of his greatest secrets lol. super kulit and fun to be with!

These are the three people who has really grown close to me. and they say you can’t meet real friends via Grindr and twitter? I say HELL NO! These people whom I met online has become my family. I know we don’t really get to hang out that much but then I want them to know that I will always be here. and sana matuloy ang out of town plan namin:) whenever I’m with them, I feel really great. I get to be myself. I just hope this friendship will last till we’re super old na, parang sex in the city ang Peg! hahah.

To Marvs, Ron and Jay! Thank you for being the best buds I never had:) I want you guys to know that I will always be here for you. I feel so blessed that I got to know you guys:)

A Career Move

After spending a year and a half with recruitment, I finally decided to make a career move. I stepped out of my comfort zone, it was something that I really thought about. I had a very easy job, and was well compensated. I almost forgot how it feels to have bigger responsibilities, I got used of just staying in my comfortable office chair, waiting for applicants to come in and I didn’t worry about my pass rate, show rate and statistics. I was having a good time watching TV, talking to my colleagues while they work on their individual tasks. All I needed to think about was my walk in applicants, data accuracy and being pleasant to each person who comes in.

Now, I’ll be dealing with trainees, pesky sups and employees of the company, pooling classes, job offers and a lot of career fairs. The TV marathon while waiting for walk-in applicants has now come to an end. I could barely remember how I was able to handle the pressure of handling my own team, My OPS life. whew! I just hope I don’t disappoint all the  people who trusts and believes in me. I will be a better person, I will help improve the process. I will bring back the proactive homer that was once me. Sana lang I won’t mess things up and hindi mali ang decision ko na umalis sa recruitment. wish me luck.

-Death-

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“No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it, and that is how it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It’s life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new.Steve Jobs, Stanford Commencement Adress, 2005
US computer engineer & industrialist (1955 – )”

I start this post with a quote about death and what it does, from my idol, Steve Jobs. It was last Monday when I logged on to my workstation that I noticed the wall paper, a picture of a fallen comrade, I will not mention his name. Seeing the posts on Fb and twitter I know a lot of people really know and love him. They speak of his cheerfulness and how he never fails to cheer people up. Now, this made me think, What if I was the one who died? would my colleagues care? will they post status messages on FB about me? will they create a wall paper of me on all workstations? I know this is kinda weird, but  ever since I was a kid, I had the habit of imagining my self inside a coffin, my spirit hovering above the people on my wake.  Observing and listening to people talking about me, how I touched their lives, how my existence made a significance on their lives, how I made a difference in the things they do and how my closest friends and family will deal with my  passing.

People don’t usually talk about death, most of them fear it, and I quote Master Steve “even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die”  and I agree with him. Why are we really afraid to die? we all know its one thing that will never change. why o why?

Honestly, the habit of imagining how people will react when they find out that I died is somehow fun, makes me more creative, I imagine people laughing and crying at the same time, while they talk amongst themselves on how I made them laugh and how I cheered them up every day. and the Eulogy, oh yes, the eulogy! my favorite part. They talk about me while I hover above them, listening and crying how touched I am with their statements. or worse no one would even bother. ouch! but then, it is a possibility. Maybe I’ll haunt my friends para matakot sila! haha. and then the burial! OMG kailangan yung songs parang yung nasa video ni emily! I want farewell and friendship songs to be played, lahat nakawhite. and then sky lanterns na my messages for me! and white flowers!

Well, kidding aside, these things make me wonder, how many lives have I touched? how many people would bother going to my wake? What things have I done to help other people? Ang dami kong tanong no? anyway bear with me, mag isa ako, wala along kausap! haha.

Ang haba ng post ko and halos english(nosebleed) lol! so jejemon! hahah! Ikaw? anong bet mo gawin kapag namatay ka?

Good Bye 2011

whew, its been a while! and I know that this post is long overdue. sorry naman, Dan went home for the holidays and of course I’d spend my time with him. hehe. so there, tulad ng nakasanayan I shall take a look back on the significant parts of my 2011:)

1. I finally decided to take up formal photography classes! not to forget and yummy classmate ko haha!

2. My dearest ever loving and pretty sister from another mother filed a sudden resignation and flew to SG! (sobrang miss na kita emily!)

3. Nadiscover ko ang aking hosting talents sa events! and madami akong nabook na event!

4. Natransfer ako sa kabilang building! nung una akala ko magiging nightmare, but then the GCMA family accepted me with open arms, nagging close ko na and trainers at andy soon to be family ko ang GOAL. chos!

5. I got my 70-200 mm IS ii USM lens;)

6. Dan left for Japan and will be out of the country for one year

7. I started working out via Xbox: Dance Central 1 & 2 and fitness

8. I finally let go of bringing 4 mobile phones everyday:) Congratulations to me!

9. I am once again cultivating my relationship with God;)

10. I upgraded my Macbook from 13 to 15″, hopefully i-bless ako ni God ng 17″ this 2012

11. Kinasal ang mga sisters ko from Recruitment si Mommy Riz( Di kami umabot ni Dan dahil sa traffic:(  at si Anj na sobrang happy ako kasi pinili nya ako na maging host sa wedding nya:)

12.I got my iPad 2 and tried both the black and white:) ito and replacement ng 3 other smartphones na dala ko everyday!

13. I got to meet new friends na photography hobbyists din! and unfortunately not in good terms kami ng best friend ko dahil sa pay prioritize nya sa booking nya and he left me hanging in thin air. tsk tsk

14. Naging super close na kami ni Dan sa family ko:) at he spent the holidays with my family and even got better gifts from them, ako na ang nagseselos lol

2011 has been a roller coaster ride for me, and gaming nangyari. may mga nawala, may mga nagbago, peru sabi nga nila the only thing permanent in this world is Change in Tagalog, Sukli! chos!

this 2012 I promise to blog more often since wala naman si Dan, sa inyo ko na lang ikekeme ang mag nararamdaman ko, as if naman ang daming nagbabasa no? haha!  Sana mas maging bongga ang year na to para sakin. mabalik na yung dating lanyard ko at maging fruitful ang year ko. at sana makasama ko na agad si Dan:) God Bless Us All!

 

 

Post Birthday Chever

This post is 5 days overdue. Haha! Anyway! I just wanna say thank you to all of those people who remembered:) the first greeting that I got is from my sister from another mother. Haha! I was so surprised when the blogger friends greeted me. My birthday was eventful, I spent the entire day with my family, my super cute niece making lambing the entire day. and now, Im 26! waaaa

Super Food Coma! Started the day with a hearty breakfast with my family and breakfast at Nature Cafe! After Church, went to Ate’s Home to pick them up for lunch. We went to Eastwood and decided to eat at Serye, Mom and Dad are both Filipino dish lovers so there you go there you have it. As Always, they really enjoyed the boneless crispy pata, Kare-kare, Dinuguan and Binagoongan with Pinakbet. Oh yes! hindi kami mahilig sa meat! lol. then we did a little shopping to buy stuff for me since birthday ko! haha. Dessert at La Creperie! If you guys, havent tried this little hang out place in eastwood, napagiwanan ka na! it’s very cozy and the crepes are awesome! and of course the award winning, Caramel Tea;) Then I met up with my photography friends to eat AGAIN! My Thai Resto-Eastwood Ground Floor. That didnt end there! haha we had Red Mango Green Tea yogurt for dessert;) ako na ang bloated! I literally felt like my Tummy is about to explode. I got to talk to my friends about life, love and other stuff. This made me realize how blessed I am, how God has given me so much. Sobrang thankful ako kay Lord kasi he blesses me with almost everything I pray for. Yung iba sobrang tambak sa pinoproblema.  I also had financial issues before, when my Dad’s company got defunct. yeah, I had to worry about these stuff din. Pero I never lost faith, kaya siguro sabi ni Lord, anak ibabalik ko na ulit yung buhay mo dati. hehe. so ayun, sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sa lahat lahat! You guys, made me feel how blessed and how special I am in a Monggie Kind of way! lol

Birthday pic from decoz.com;)

Angelito Young Husband(Batang Ama)

Hindi po ito associated sa bagong ABS-CBN Teleserye, and topic na ito ay naisipan ko lang iblog dahil over the weekend ay nakausap ko at nag open up sakin si New Friend. Then I remembered my sister asking me questions about Early Parenthood, she had data showing that as young as 14 yrs old may anak na. grabe, ano na bang nangyari sa pagiging conservative ng pinoy?

eto ay base sa tunay na buhay at kasagutan ng aking new friend. lol. WTF. Itago natin sya sa pangalang JAM. He got his GF pregnant at the age of 17, the girl was just 16 at that time. I asked him if the baby was conceived dahil sa isang one-night accident. apparently, hindi! haha They`ve been doing “it” regularly. I asked if he was aware of contraceptives. and if they utilized any of the methods taught in school, yes. Withdrawal and Calendar method. So I guess marunong na ang mga kabataan, yun nga lang decision making pa din, hindi ito naituturo sa paaralan, talagang dapat ang parents ang nagtuturo ng values sa mga anak nila.

I asked kung ano ang una nilang reaction nung nalaman nila na buntis na ang malanding karibal ko, chos. apparently, abortion ang una nilang naisip! OMG. at over the counter and drugs na unang option! then yung mga halamang ugat sa quiapo. Eto naiwasan sana kung naituro ng parents ang kahalagahan ng buhay. I guess nowadays, parents dont really get in touch and bond with their kids anymore! Sabi nga ng isang iskat na noodle brand, dapat daw mas mag spend time together family, kahit dinner Lang so that they could talk about issues and how kids feel. Nakakatakot kasi ang aga magengage sa sex ng mga kabataan ngaYon! Nasobrahan na ang pag rely ng parents sa nga teachers sa school para iteach sa anak nila ang nga dapat malaman sa buhay nila. Di ba nila alam na Hindi lahat ng bagay Ay natutunan sa school?

 

Sana nga eh maisaayos na ang reproductive health bill at sex education para maiwasan ang unwanted pregnancies and untimely death of women and babiTsk tsk

 

 

Friends with benefits

This post has nothing to do with JT aka Justin Timberlake. And after the hiatus, I am back-lush lol. I was with my family last weekend, spent the night at Sofitel. Was about to take an evening stroll when someone stepped out of one of the nearby rooms, I saw a close friend’s bf. thinking that I would be seeing my dearest friend, I rushed to the door and almost fainted when I saw a different guy(dearest friend’s best friend) almost naked, towel wrapped around his waist. We were both in shock, took me a few seconds before words came out. “what the hell do you think you’re doing?, don’t you f*ckin lie to me, I ain’t stupid. You just did your best friend’s bf!” I was furious. And guess what my friend told me, while lighting a stick of cigar “honey, monogamous relationships are for straight people, Us GAYS are meant to be polygamous”. I was out of words. I didn’t know what to say, I felt really bad…

Me: Whatever happened to the word “respect”?
Friend: you have such a boring life! And besides, this only means one thing! That guy doesn’t deserve my best friend!
Me: so you screw your friend’s partner to see if they deserve to be with your friends?
Friend:(walks to the balcony and continues smoking)
Me: how do you think Carlo will react if he finds out that his best friend has been screwing around with his partner? Alam mo naman na first time Nya magseryoso (you know for a fact that this is his first time to engage in a serious relationship)
Friend: dont be such a drama queen, gay relationships are supposed to be this way.
Me: WHAT?! Oh come on! Share a dick-win a friend does not apply to your close friends for crying out loud! You can’t just go doing it with a friend’s partner!
Friend: this is pointless. I’m tired and spent, I wanna go to sleep. You should leave…

Now, I still haven’t told Carlo the details on what happened last weekend,i don’t know what to do, I’m confused. And this got me thinking, what if I found out that a close friend is screwing around with Dan? I don’t even want to think about it. It would really hurt.. Well the last person who tried, got 5 stitches on his lower lip and drunk Dan became sober when saw all the blood. Haha.

I found out that a friend has been screwing his best friend’s partner. I was torn,whether I should let my friend know. what his Besty and partner has been doin. Or I should just keep my mouth shut. Hay.

Everything that happened just got me thinking, Friends with benefits really does happen in the real world! Minus the falling in love and marriage part. Tsk Tsk.

Emilia Rinaldi-Princess of Guagua

]Today I will blog about one of the most important persons in my life, someone who has grown really close to me and Dan, ladies and gentlemen, may I present to you my sister from another mother, Princess Emilia Rinaldi Valbuena. haha. ayan iniba ko ang namesung para hindi basta masearch sa google at masundan na naman ng freaky ex-bf. lol

Last Friday, July 29, 2011 marks another moment in my eP History, one of my closest friends finally resigned, wala akong ginawa kundi dumaldal ng dumaldal habang nagcclearance sya, haha di ko masyado kinakausap kasi sabi ko sa knya di ako iiyak e, haha! and guess what! kinaya naman ng powers ko! Pero ang hirap, kasi aalis na naman si Dan, wala pa si atche, night shift si Chrissy, nasa GCMA ako. good luck talaga! pag di ako nalerkey!

Our friendship started, way way back year 2007, I was still with Experian(Moment of Silence) Coach Benji, introduced me to a pretty and balingkinitan lady, her name is Ems, aka Atcheng bee. eto and litrato na pnagpapatunay na manipis nga kami noon:

Ang nipis!

Doon nagsimula ang baklaan moments namin, kwentuhan ng buhay-buhay, family stories, asshole ex-fiance stories. pak! alam na!, dun din namin natutunan ang ibig sabihin ng acronyms like PHILIPPINES(Pumping Hot I Love It, Please Please I Need Erotic Stimulation) LIBYA(Life Is Beautiful, You Also), dumami ang chikahan lalo na ang usapang kalokohan namin! as in dun na nagsimula ang aming pagiging close. Then came the Experian Buy out(Moment of Silence Ulit) floating ang mga lola nyo, tapos ang Ondoy incident na, doon na nagsimulang maging super close si Chrissy at Atche, at syempre akes. please see pic Below. manipis pa din si atche. hahah

and then nalipat ang mga floaters sa recruitment, Temporarily… araw araw ang tawanan, kwentuhan at kulitan blues. tapos dumating ang paglisan ng aking minamahal. haha! I will never forget the time nung ni-hug nila kong dalawa(Tulo Luha Moment) tapos pinakain ako ni atche ng Sausage, courtesy of Earl`s Delicatessen. haha! and then yang piktyur na nasa ibabaw ay nagmula sa iyakan moment ni atche after the Koyang Bee incident. Tapos, naabsorb na ko ng recruitment! (Fireworks) tapos sinali ang target team samin, see Pic below:

Target Send-Off Party

Ang piktyur na nasa ibabaw ay ang send off ng target team. tapos sila chrissy naman ang napull out. ang lungkot! naiwan kami ni atche, as in literally kaming dalawa na lang lagi, kasi yung isang bakla e lagi indian kapag nagpplano! buti nga at sumisipot kapag biglaan lang ang usapan. haha! katulad ng Christmas Dinner na itey!

Dinner na Biglaan

sa Apat na taon mahigit na magkasama kami ni atche, sobrang parang kapatid ko na talaga sya. isa sya sa mga naging reasons kaya di ako umalis ng eP. kaya yung mga makulit na nagtatanong bakit ako nalungkot ng bongga, ibigay nyo na sa akin ha. kaya nga nagbblog ako ngayon, 2:03 AM! dahil nanaginip ako. parang flashback nung kulitan moments namin, ayun. tapos ang layo pa ni atche, ang sisterette everlu na baklita ay di ko basta basta mapupuntahan kapag may kailangan. tsk! anyway, sabi nga nila distance is never an issue sa friendship. kaya kahit malayo ka man, at malayo din ako. haha! atche, I will always be here for you. sobrang mamimiss kita! My eP life will never be the same! di bale magkikita naman tayo soon. baklaan moment ulit! wag ka malulungkot ha! sasampalin kita ng boobs at tyan ko! chos! haha nakakatawa yung linya ko pero naiiyak pa din ako pag naaalala ko. hay. eto ay litrato namin mula sa aking ever bonggang production number para sa knya. haha. aywill mess you ang tik ker of yourselps.!

Ang nipis!

Target Send-Off Party

Dinner na Biglaan