I really can’t believe it, this is my 5th Valentine with my guy. These past couple of weeks has been a roller coaster ride for us. There were a couple of issues that we had to address and thank goodness we already went past those. I guess when you both love each other, you will always find a way to make it work. This is just me sharing how blessed I am that I found someone who loves me in a way that I have never been loved. Prior to this, I gave up on love. I had this weird feeling that I was too old for this. My last relationship took its toll on me, I had so much negativity when it comes to love.
Being gay, I was meant to just watch all of my hetero friends marry, have children, and grow old with their partners. My closest friends know the trauma and the pain that I felt because of cheating and having manipulative ex-partners. This broke me and shattered my heart. I actually stopped asking God for a partner, I just asked for strength and supernatural joy to fill my heart to avoid that longing for someone to be with till I grow old. I just enjoyed travelling and doing stuff that I didn’t do when I was in a relationship. I guess I had to learn to be happy on my own again and take care of myself more.
It was at the most unexpected time when I met my partner thru a common friend. We were supposed to be friends, but since he was so good-looking and nice, I had this secret crush on him. LOL. Days, weeks and months went by and unconsciously, we fell for each other. I really was not expecting anything at all. I am his first male partner, It was a huge adjustment for the two of us. It was a challenge, believe me. For someone who has never attempted to be with a straight guy, it was difficult! haha.
Years passed, we are now hitting the 5th anniversary. I can say that this love is different, I am appreciated, respected, and prioritized. Gone were the days that I had to worry about being cheated on, I have a partner who is honest, caring and always excited to be with me. YATA. CHAR! haha! I guess, after years of being in bad relationships, I can definitely say how different it is when you are with someone who really loves you. Sorry for being cheesy, it’s Valentines’ so bigay nyo na sakin to. haha. I am just super happy 🙂 I am just appreciating my partner. ayorn, since it’s araw ng heart. I just want to spread the love dust. hehe.
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